I no longer work at Great American Cookies. I quit, but they speeded that process along by replacing my shifts for the remaining weeks- granted it was only 3 days, but still. THink it will be for the best in the end, but now stressing about bills.


Additionally, I've been having chest pains. Went to the dr & had an abnormal EKG. Had both a mammogram & an echocardiogram. My mammogram was fine. The echo indicated that i had a thickening of the muscle on theleft side of my heart caused by high blood pressure. Oh yeah dailiy headaches too. So I HAVE to get my blood pressure under control & no undo stressing.   LMAO Me? stress?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY THOM!!!!

Comment to this post and I will give you 5 subjects/things I associate you with. Then post this in your LJ and elaborate on the subjects given.

From Amanda
1. Laughing/Smiling
 I'm glad you think so. I try really hard to enjoy life. Sometimes i'm dying inside, but want the world to see the happy me, so i'm glad that laughing/smiling is associated with me. Besides who can help but smile when Amanda is nearby :)

2. Responsibility
Now there's a double-edged sword, but apt I'd say. I feel responsible for my friends and family. I want everybody to be happy and everything to run smoothly. Unfortunately, this sometimes results in me taking on more responsibility than i can comfortably handle, but hey that what Tia is for, right?

3. Comfort
Awww! That's the biggest compliment ever!

4. Hugs
I love hugs. I love to get them & give them. Hugs work when you're happy, sad, confused,whatever. There's nothing like human contact to make it all make sense again.

5. Cookies

LOL! Even if i didn't work at the cookie store i think this would still be associated with me.

From Tammy
1. smiles & hugs
 Yay!  I'm glad I'm perceived that way

2. organizer
Really? I think this is my biggest weakness. I CAN be organized but it takes tremendous focus on my part & the ADHD part of my brain doesn't always cooperate.

3. giver (seems whatever anyone needs you're trying to help provide regardless)
That's me, I'm a giver- for better or worse lol. I don't feel complete unless I'm helping others. Unfortunately I forget to help myself lol.

4. Michigan (more for waky but for you by association!)
 remain neutral, but guess i'll take this one for Waky- the things marriage makes you do

5. Thom's brainGpd I miss this! My brain ran better when I had Thom's in there too lol.

I finally have my own computer & WoW acct. so i made a toon on Argent Dawn but don't know anybody's character names. Please friend me or tell me your name. My toon is Tiasalt ( haha Tia's alt).

I'm excited. I've got a sitter and may actually be able to see my friends tonight kid-free! I won't know what to do with myself lol. I also learned this week that unconventional means can relieve stress in unexpected ways. SO, yeah to being less stressed

Ok, so I couldn't handle being Bad Mom, so I throwing together a birthday party for both boys next weekend (31st). I'll let people know more when I have details. 

P.S. I am officially a bad mother. He keeps asking when his friends are going to come and wish him a happy birthday, but due to financial difficulties I was never able to arrange a party :(   At 4, he just doesn't understand that.

Just as a note to friends: I am currently fighting some depression. I stress"fighting", but it has been leaving me feeling very disconnected from myself, my family, & my friends. Unfortunately, Waky is currently fighting his own depression issues. So, sorry if I am distant or nonexistant in your lives. I'm trying not to slip into the abyss & it's taking alot out of me. The kids & Waky get the rest :) When I can muster it, I will pull myself all the way out. In the mean time, I'm going to try to feel useful. Probably need to get out there and do more, but just so darn tired! Alas, with Waky blue too, I only getting limited amounts  of my quick fix remedy :P

JAMES IS OFFICIALLY MOBILE!!!!! He learned how to crawl FORWARD today and can slowly but surely go where he wants. 

James had an ENT appt today. The doc looked at him said everything looks good, "do we have an appt to put him in the sound booth?"  I said, "Yes, today." Doc remembers and agrees with me. After a lengthy wait, the audiologist finally arrives & apologizes. Apparently the pagers weren't working. James did well but there wer some tones that I heard & he appeared not to. They were very quiet so not sure if he didnt hear them or just ignored them. Then, she tried a head set that sat just outside teh ears. He hated it, heard a few more tones, but still not responding to all of them. He got cranky, so the audiologist decided to do a different test that put nodules in his ear canals & measured ear drum movement. It was actually noticeable that he had an ear canal on the right (little ear) side. YaY! That was up for debate before. He passed on the left (i.e. normal) ear, but did show signs of mild hearing loss. It was determined that there was fluid in the ear. The right (little) ear did not pass, but scored a "refer". It showed movement of the ear drum (which is also present YAY!), but not enough to pass. The ear may still develop normally with only exterior deformities, but its too early to tell. However, speech and language skills will develop normally with only one ear. The big deal is to keep the left ear functioning normally and "maximize" it. So, have to return in abt 6 wks to check if fluid has drained. If not, then tube in that ear before flu season hits. But overall, things look good, whatever may happen. If action needs to be taken, he does have a normally functioning ear and a somewhat responsive deformed ear. Hell, I'll learn sign language if I have to.

So I guess  i'm officially back to work at the Cookie Co. - LOL.  I worked half a day the Saturday before Father's Day & found out today that I'm working the 4th. Guess my next day of work will be Labor Day??

 So, been bad on diet, but trying. If I miss my workout for the day, I at least make an effort to do some kind of cardio play with Joe. Guess it's working a little. Weighed myself today before Zumba and had lost 4 pounds.

Cardiologist said she couldn't hear a heart murmur and EKG was normal. She did have him take a chest x-ray, but only because he's been congested so long. She said he had no outward signs of a heart defect. She will call only if there is a problem with the x-rays 

 I'm not su[pposed to show this to anyone ......so I made it my avatar. Is that wrong???

 SO, stuck at home with two sick kids while Waky & I desperately try to not get sick.  Hearing the kids struggle for breath & being woken up by puking is NEVER fun. Oh, the joys of my life...

 James Alexander Harris was born at 8:01 am on feb.1st - 8 lbs, 3oz

So much for a baby bigger than Joe, but I don't have to worry about being able to pick him up at least. We encountered a few road bumps during/after the delivery, but everything seems fine for now. There was meconium present when they opened the amniotic fluid (which means that James had a bowel movement before he was born). This could potentially lead to problem, so James was immediately rushed to another room to be well suctioned and checked extensively. Waky was very aggravated and nervous. I heard James crying and took that as a good sign. Unfortunately, this meant that Waky didn't get to cut the umbilical cord :(  When James was returned, we were informed that he had a brth defect of the right ear. It appears that is did not form properly. James did pass his hearing test, but the doctors have been unable to see the ear drum. He may need to see an ear, nose, and throat specialist, may need surgery eventually, etc. However, currently, he can hear and the opening may grow larger as he matures. He goes to the pediatrician today and we find out if he will be referred to a specialist or not. 

 13 hours to go